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P.S. My husband did not get the VD CD this year. Wasn't feeling it. I bought myself a new iPod, though. I was the best valentine I ever had! :) I remember the VD 8 years when Travis bought me a DVD player, and we were broken up. Gawd, what an idiot.

LV 2008

I nearly forgot! I am going back out LV in May. I'm very excited!! I leave on 5/26 and return on 5/30. It's a Monday to Friday thing... the extra day mostly because of wonky flight times. Instead of getting there in the morning, we will arrive in the evening... like 5:30 or 6 p.m. on Monday. And instead of leaving in the afternoon on Friday, we leave at like... 10 a.m. And believe it or not, it was actually CHEAPER to stay the extra day. I don't know, either... Baffling.

Either way, staying at Planet Hollywood again. Yes, I know... but I'm familiar with the layout and the attached mall is a plus. I love H&M and Urban Outfitters. Right now I'm too fat for the clothes, but hopefully that will change one of these days. Speaking of change... I think I forgot my birth control pill again this morning! This is the 2nd time I've done that this week. WTF? I am not having sex, though, so I'm not worried about that. I just don't want any funny business. My stomach is about to start growling. NO GOOD. I can't eat right now.

So sick and tired of being so sick and tired

So, like every other Central Illinoisan right now... I am pissy about the weather. I mean, really. But just like everyone else, I'm done complaining about it. It does me no good, so.... why bother? We're all in the same boat. That being said....

I have fallen in love with the Cease to Desist album from Band of Horses. I bought it a while back because I heard good things about it, and put it with the rest of my CDs and didn't pick it up again for a few months. But I wish I had done it alot sooner! What a gorgeous album. It reminds me alot of The Shins, another of my favorite bands. (my favorite track on "Wincing the Night Away" is "Split Needles". Me and Jason Lee.) Seriously, if you haven't listened to this album, do it immediately. I love No One's Gonna Love You and Detlef Schrempf, in particular. Both are very calm and melancholy, and No One's Gonna Love You has such a lament to it... such a lilting, defeated sound. It gets stuck in my head anytime I hear it. Which is a pleasure, and I hate to have songs stuck in my head. It's already cluttered in there, and it has enough of its own soundtrack to fill days and days of non-stop play.

Otherwise, I picked up the Aloha album and liked that quite alot. And of course, thank goodness, Vampire Weekend lived up to the hype. I hate when albums don't live up to their buzz. I mean, it's an unfortunate way to come out of the gate anyway, but at least in that case they are as good as they've been touted. Some bands put out albums and they are just consistently great. Such as The Foo Fighters, for example. Granted, some people didn't like Skin & Bones that much, but it's a matter of taste. Do those people just not like acoustic stuff? Then they aren't going to like that album. Plain & simple. If you don't have an affinity for a style of music or type of sound, then you aren't going to find much about an album in that style that is charming.

I don't regret it.

And I did love him.

My husband is an idiot

Have I mentioned this before? Yes, he's an idiot. He's a fucking clueless asshole. My son, who is 5, has strep. I cannot get him to take medicine. In fact, he's going to have to go in for a penicillin shot tomorrow due to this. He throws up everything, including his medicine when I can actually talk him into taking it. Fuck it, I'm staying home tomorrow to ensure that this gets done. Adam is going to work. The reason I say he's an asshole is because whilst I was trying to get Aidan's medicine down him tonight, Adam was too busy playing HIS FUCKING GAME to help. Yes, he's addicted to WoW. He's unable to do anything else when that is going on. When he's raiding. Everyone I know thinks that he's a fucking lamer due to this problem. And you know what? They are 100% right. I am leaving him. For multiple reasons, but this is one of them. Let the weight loss begin!

I have nothing!

Oh, woe is me. That is, btw, linguistically incorrect. Woe is I. Which sounds ridiculous. Anyway... I am sitting here, and I have come to the realization that I have nothing and no one. I mean, my husband is punishing me for sleeping on the couch last night, I guess. Since he hasn't spoken to me today. You know what? I don't really care. I am beyond giving a shit right now. Our amazing son was trying to read last night and HE couldn't tear himself away from his game to see that in action. WTF? He did come in and watch, but then he started butting in and I was sorry I called attention to it.

I am very excited about the potential tax return and getting some of these bills paid off. And I was serious about needing moving expenses, too. However, I can't make too many plans to do something drastic until I know for sure that I have a job after Q1. I mean, it's a possibility that I won't, right? Suck, but true. And that would leave me with a P/T job at Borders. Which would actually be okay, if I were to work there full time in the interim. Pay isn't so great, but if I were to become part of IPT, that would be alright.

So what was I saying? Oh, right... I have nothing. I mean, look... Here I sit. My best friend complains that we don't talk, but she never reaches out for email, and I'm tired of doing it. Does that make me a bad friend? Maybe. I'll reach out to her. I have emailed another friend today, and have been ignored. Maybe I'll try a different one. Am I such a bad person? Am I that forgettable? I think that might be it. I don't have a spark. I'm too fat. I'm not pretty enough. I'm funny, but more so in person than via email. I can't figure out when I started to suck so bad. Why can't I quit eating crap? Why am I still so fat and gaining? Why am I unhappy in my marriage? Will being alone help me be a happier person? I wish Adam happiness as well, but I have no idea if he'll find it either.

EWWWW.... VD alert!

HA! So Valentine's Day is just about 3 weeks away, and I decided to start thinking about making the hubster the annual LUUUUUUUUURVE CD. I try not to duplicate past efforts. I mean, some of the songs I choose are older, yes... but they have not previously been chosen for inclusion in the exclusive annual CD. He does nothing like this for me, and that's fine. He knows that he would choose a bunch of crap that I don't like (because he's fairly limited) and that I am more worldly, eh... and with better taste and a better collection. So far, I have come up with the following tracks - as I said, some are older and/or well known. But they have not been put on a CD of this magnitude in previous efforts.

The One I Love - REM (natch)
Indefinitely - Old 97's
A Girl Like You - Pete Yorn
Love and Some Verses - Iron and Wine
Kissing the Lipless - The Shins
Vibrate - Rufus Wainwright
The One I Love - David Gray
God Only Knows - The Beach Boys
The Fragile - Nine Inch Nails
I'd Die Without You - P.M. Dawn
All of My Love - Led Zeppelin
Your Song - Elton John
Diamonds & Pearls - Prince
I'll Be Your Mirror - Clem Snide
In the Sun - Michael Stipe w/ Chris Martin
This is Why You Love Me - The Brian Jonestown Massacre
Somewhere Out There - Linda Ronstadt & James Ingram
Meet Me Halfway - Kenny Loggins

I know... some of that is way cheesy. But these are things that I like, and think he might like. Of course, I might have to rethink NIN. He's not too progressive, the hub. Last year, I included Question, Such Great Heights, I Will Follow You, and New Slang. Great stuff. He was a little befuddled at first, but then once I forced him to LISTEN to the songs, he dug it. Example as to why he would struggle with that stuff: His favorite band is Pearl Jam. Which, hey, they are a fine band. Personally, I think Eddie Vedder kind of sings like a goat, but what do I know? (nothing, if you ask my husband) F -i-i-i-i-i-i-i-rst k-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-iss (go head, sing it with some serious goat vibrato and you'll get it). He always says I'm exaggerating when I launch my impersonation, but evs. I'm right, and it's funny besides. I am tired yet again today, but there is nothing I can do about it. I have to finish the day and night. AI is on tonight, as is the new RR/RW Challenge, so that's pretty exciting! And of course, I know what else I have to do this evening. ((sigh)) CHORES!